Crappity crap crap crap.
Sorry. I’m just mega annoyed at myself this week. Let’s cut to the chase, I gained 1.5lb. I’m so annoyed. Not with anything but myself you understand but just so annoyed.
I haven’t had a bad week meal wise. I’ve eaten good syn free meals, planned in advance and thoroughly enjoyed. But I have been picking. It’s not even snacking, it’s picking. Eating crap I don’t need or particularly want, while all the while thinking “this is OK, I’ll count X amount of Syns for this”. But of course it’s not “OK”.
I was so thrilled with last weeks results, I’m not sure that didn’t lead to a touch of the cockiness in this week’s thinking. Cocky or lazy I’m not sure.
Whatever. I’m so bloody annoyed.
But as my “emotionally intelligent” (his words!) husband pointed out, getting annoyed and giving myself a hard time won’t take that 1.5lb off . And man I hate it when he’s right!
So this week I’ve taken another food diary. I thought I’d gotten to a place where I could do this without writing it all down, but maybe I haven’t. And I have these tools, that I know work, so why not use them. I have also bought a new SW cook book. I haven’t really bothered with the books before. I usually get inspiration from the internet, but I have found the SW website is great for recipes when you know what you’re looking for. It’s not so great for just perusing and seeing what you fancy. So thought I’d give a book a try. I’ve already had a look through and have seen a couple of meals I really like the look of.
But as I explained it’s not really the meals that are my problem. It’s the little bits in between. How do I deal with those? Well for one I can stop buying things for Oscar I would never buy for myself, particularly when I’m pretty sure he won’t eat them. I do question the logic behind, in one day, buying him a chocolate twist, a sausage roll and a jam doughnut. He only ate half a chocolate twist. When I stop and think, I do have to ask myself, who was I actually buying them for? And that makes me a little sad.
So moving forward I have 2lb to loose to reach the 5.5 stone award that has so eluded me this week. With my diary in hand and my wits about me I know I can do this. I need to start heeding my own words.
Believe and you will.
Have a great week.