Hey you guys!
Having a good week? Mines been long. Or at least it felt that way. I’ve said it before, the hardest thing about switching your weigh in day is the length of the following week. This week it’s been 9 days, which is nothing really, but the extra wait for weigh in felt like a lifetime!
After last week’s fantastic result, I wanted to do something I thought long and hard about. For not succumbing all those times. For holding back so I could use my syns on items better for me. For all the times I had stayed strong, I decided last Wednesday to spend my syns on a piece of cake from the Hen House. I was so proud of my achievements and decided whilst I didn’t want to see this as any kind of ‘reward’, I wanted to eat and enjoy something I wouldn’t usually have. Originally I ordered a piece of coffee cake. However, when it came I had a small mouthful and was disappointed at how dry it had become (it was one of the last pieces). The old Lisa would have eaten it anyway and just been disappointed. Not any more. I really wanted to enjoy the thing I was dedicating a whole days syns too! So I took it back. They were very sweet about it and happily exchanged it for some Red Velvet Cake instead. And oh my god, am I glad I spoke up. The Red Velvet Cake was amazing. Oscar also agreed. I made the mistake of giving him a forkful. Well, after that I was lucky to get half the piece 😉 !
But it didn’t make me want to eat more cake, or buy cake every time I go in there. I guess that’s how ‘normal’ people behave, or at least those without my crazy food issues. And I’m proud and at peace with my choice and behaviour.
Anyway at weigh in last night I stayed the same. Total loss is still 5 stone 8 lb (78lb). And do you know, I wasn’t as disappointed about this as I have been in the past. I have (Red Velvet Cake aside) been on plan and within my syns all week. But sometimes it’s just the way it goes. However, and please don’t think I’m making excuses here, but my system has also been very erm… sluggish? over the past few days. I had one day where I made pasta and sauce from scratch for lunch, and then had an enormous Cauliflower Dansak that I made for tea. All free and super free, but pasta, cauliflower, rice and lentils all in one day would appear to have been too much of an onslaught for my digestion. It’s been pretty uncomfortable since then. I started to feel better today, but hey, lesson learnt!
June is shaping up to be an insanely busy month already! We have friends coming to stay and various events to attend. Its so exciting! Yes it will pose challenges – that I understand. But there are always ways and means to protect my weight loss. My goal is plan ahead as much as possible, and to be able to keep a cool head and think on my feet when I can’t plan. No one event is worth ruining my hard work for and anyway surely its more about the people I’ll be with and the laughs we’ll have than what’s on offer to eat?! I still want to lose 6lb by 19th June (in time for my ‘step cousin in law”s wedding), so I really need to get on it this week. A 2lb loss would be great. I also need to go shopping soon, as I have nothing to wear for said wedding, so watch this space for dress updates 😉
Have a great week (whether you choose to have cake or not)