#AllTheFilters

If I talk about him too much it’s because he’s all I have. All I am. Everything I’m doing at the moment is him.

I’m sorry if I bore you or if you’d rather talk about more fun things. So would I. SO WOULD I. I want to talk about the latest cinema or the funny things I’ve been up to or the nights I’ve had out or the classes I’m attending.

My life is so dull. The only fun things I do are fun things he does. The only classes I’m attending are Autism 101. The only exciting things happening for me are hearing our EHCP paperwork has been received and that the process is beginning.

I’m sorry if I bore you enough to cut me off. I cut myself off too. Do you notice? Half way through a sentence I realise I’m boring you, so I stop and ask you about yourself. Did you see that? Probably not.

Maybe it’s just too hard for you to hear. You have your own life, your own struggles, your own hard times. Why would you want to hear about mine? I understand that. I do. Not that I focus on the bad, I really, really don’t. Believe me, you get the IG version of how I’m feeling today. Hashtag: allthefilters.

I promised myself when we started this journey that I wouldn’t become all consumed with it. But some days I simply can’t manage anything else.

I’m sorry if I bore you.

This is my life.

 

 

A Cornish Mum
Life with Baby Kicks
Sons, Sand & Sauvignon

Comments

  1. Celia Farrow says:

    I found your blog quite by chance when looking for reviews on Millie Jones and I have followed you ever since. I find your posts interesting, reflective and fun but never boring. I am a mum to two boys aged 10 and 8 and much of my life is consumed by them too but I wouldn’t have it any other way. You come across as such a caring mum full of love and pride for your son’s achievements. I only live in Midhurst so if you ever fancy coffee and cake, give me a shout ????

    • mrssavageangel says:

      Wow thank you so much Celia. I’m always amazed to hear how people find me and it’s so wonderful to hear you enjoy my writing. Mothering any children is so hard and often baffling, so the more we support one another the better. A coffee and a cake sounds right up my street! If you’re ever in Haslemere just let me know!

  2. Keep talking honey, there are people listening even if they don’t comment. I’ll be honest I never know what to say as I don’t understand what you’re going through, but always read. Xx

    • mrssavageangel says:

      Ahhh Leandra, that’s such a kind thing to say. I don’t expect everyone (or anyone) to understand (we’re all different afterall), but thank you so much for your support. It is much appreciated I assure you xxx

  3. Those people who don’t listen aren’t worth the time Hun. It is a fantastic side effect of being a SEN mum that you quickly find who really are your friends and can banish those who are unworthy of your greatness! Never boring lovely x

  4. I think at least 50% of my conversations must be about ASD. Luckily, I mostly just talk to my family who are just as absorbed and influenced by it as I am!

    • mrssavageangel says:

      That must be nice – I have no family locally. But they don’t have the experience yours do anyway. I try to talk about other stuff, but it’s hard when its your life!

  5. That is such a moving post. You are obviously going through a lot and if it is consuming your life, it is understandable that’s going to be all you talk about! And if people don’t like that, they don’t have to read.
    Popping over from SSAmazingAchievements.

  6. Honestly I started blogging so I’d stop just talking autism to my husband the moment he stepped in the door. Course, now all I do is talk blogging! Blast! #SSAmazingAchievements

  7. Not boring at all, but it sounds like life feels a little relentless at times, it is always hard with young children but add SEN and everyday must be a series of highs and lows, I hope the highs win in your world. Popping by from Small Steps Amazing Achievements

  8. All you can do is be yourself and be true to you. You have to be true to break down stigma #SpectrumSunday

  9. Massive hugs. I think often that all parenting can seem a little “boring” at times. It’s not though. It’s no more boring than me listening to the awful customer you had at work today, or yesterday or the day before.

    People who care are the ones that really listen. That understand. That ask questions. Those are the people you need to keep in your life and worry about, because they will worry about you xx

  10. Never boring lovely, reading long we feel your highs and lows with you. I get so excited for you when I read about Oscar doing something you never thought he would, and I can tell how much the small things so many of us take for granted mean to you.

    Thanks for linking up to #PicknMix hon,

    Stevie xx

  11. Never apologise for feeling overwhelmed. It is overwhelming and it does take over your life. I get the impression your son is young and all this is very new, it’s a long journey but your boy will amaze and astound you on the way. Believe me, it’ll be far from boring. Hugs.

    • mrssavageangel says:

      He is and yes we are. I do believe you’re right – just some days it’s hard to remember that! Thank you for reminding me xxxx

  12. Really heartfelt post again lovely. There is definitely nothing boring about autism! I wish it was a bit more boring sometimes! You keep writing, you keep talking, it helps you process everything! Thank you for linking up to #spectrumsunday lovely, hope to see you again Sunday xx

  13. Your posts are never boring, lovely.
    It’s SN parenting, isn’t it? Sometimes it’s overwhelming, especially if there’s a bit of a battle to get something sorted and its overseen by somebody who just sees our children as a budget number on a sheet.
    It’s hard work and it’s good to just blog it out sometimes, much better for wellbeing than bottling it all up.
    Thanks for linking up with #SSAmazingAchievements

    • mrssavageangel says:

      I agree. It’s talking to people in real life that can be the hardest. Because you can see them switch off! Haha ahh well Thank you for hosting!

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