So as promised in my previous post here is my update, a day early.
This past week has been incredibly challenging. I feel like I have been surrounded by images of festive indulgence for weeks now, but this week it has really started to get to me. I think it’s because all the groups we go too have broken up for Christmas, which really makes it feel like we’re on holiday. I have had to remind myself constantly that its not actually Christmas yet!
So OK this past week hasn’t always seen the wisest food choices, although I have tried to keep to planned meals. I know my will power has been tested to its absolute limits in the past few days, which is why I am so glad I hadn’t bought a tin of chocolate biscuits, like I normally do at Christmas. I’m pretty sure one of those bad boys would have been gone in one sitting on Sunday if I had!
For various reasons it worked out better for me to go to the weigh in on Monday, rather than my usual group on Tuesday. It was at a different venue (same consultant, different group) but I was desperate to get weighed right before Christmas. Partly to know how I’m doing, partly so I know exactly how I do over the Christmas week and partly so I could tell you, and my family when I visit them in Devon, exactly how much I have lost so far.
And that figure is exactly 4 Stone (56lb).
Yep this week I lost the 1lb I asked for and reached my 4 stone award. It feels like the best Christmas present I could have given myself. I’m so proud and seeing Ben’s face when I told him was priceless.
So what will the coming week bring? Well, I still intend to eat what I want to on Christmas Day. We went and bought small pieces of our favourite cheeses on Saturday from the very knowledgeable cheese counter at Secretts Farm Shop in Milford and I am really looking forward to savouring every mouthful. We have our one box of beautiful chocolates and our Baileys and bottle of Verve. I can’t wait!
But this Christmas will be different for me. I will not eat til I ache. I will not eat things I don’t really want or like, just because they’re there. And I will not eat food others want to give me if I do not want it myself. I’m just not prepared to deal with the kind of fall out a week of binging will bring.
But a day of small indulgences, well that I can cope with 😉 .
Before I go, I just wanted to say a huge thank you to everyone who has read my blog and given me such amazing feedback over the past 6 months. I cannot explain how much it’s meant to me and my journey and I look to pay that positivity and kindness forward wherever I can. You are all so amazing. Thank you.
I hope you all have the Christmases you want and choose for yourselves. Mine will be spent with the family and friends I love wearing clothes that are already three sizes smaller than when I started this journey. I feel so very lucky and I can’t wait to see what I can achieve in 2014.
I look forward to updating you in the New Year, but for now I’ll say a massive
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!