What a week! What a crappy week. It’s been glorious weather, but I’ve had so many things go wrong and so many bits of bad news that, well, it’s just been crappy. Ever get that?
I guess it’s best not to dwell. The week’s nearly over and to be honest there have been some nice things in the week (like a fab trip to the Hen House and an invitation to a grown up lunch with a friend sans children!). It’s just been predominantly crappy, that’s all.
Which is why last night’s 0.5lb gain didn’t surprise me in the slightest. What else could it have been?
I’m not upset particularly. I know I could have done things better than I did this week. I was a bit sad though. I stayed to group last night and came out feeling OK, but like I wanted a bar of something (it’ll always be a bar of something with me, never a glass of something 😉 !) I haven’t done that, even on weigh in night, for bloody ages, but I phoned Ben and told him that’s what I was going to do. He said, if I was sure. So I went to the garage on my way home. I walked around saying to myself ‘you can have anything you like. Anything. Only not a massive bar, just a normal size bar. OK?’ So I kept looking and looking and then I saw the ice cream fridge and thought ‘oo maybe an ice cream?’ Then I remembered I had low syn (3.5) Funny Feet lollies in the freezer at home and just like that I left. Empty handed. I could have had anything I liked and I went with the express intention of buying ‘what I wanted’. Only something in me decided not to. And it was so easy too. It wasn’t a great big, stopping in my tracks battle, like I’ve had in the past. I just realised it wasn’t really want I wanted. So gain or no gain I ended up feeling pretty proud of myself last night. And I really enjoyed my Funny Foot!
Looking ahead, I do sincerely want to get back to my 6 stone. I seem to take so much longer to get from one stone to the half, than from the half to the stone. Or at least it seems that way. Out of curiosity and to see if I was right, I took a look at the length of time its taken me to get all my awards. And do you know I was shocked. Each award seemed to take such a long time to receive and yes some took longer than others (my 4.5 and 5.5 stone ones for example) but none have taken ridiculously long to reach and some of the earlier ones no time at all!
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I know it’s going to take longer the closer I get to the ‘end’, but in the last year I lost on average 1.75lb a week.
So (stern voice on) I need stop messing about. Just because I got my 6 stone award, doesn’t give me the right to get all billy big boots. Sort it out!
Right (resuming normal voice). This week I will lose 2lb and I want you to hold me accountable for that. Sara? Can you put that as a mini target in your notes please? I have bought tonnes of fruit this week and all stuff I love. Plums, Strawberries, Peaches, Satsumas, Cherries, Melon, Bananas, Jazz Apples and White flesh Nectarines. Nooooooooommmm! So snacking wont be a problem. I also need to remember to drink more water, particularly in this heat. Not for weight loss necessarily, but more for my health!! I’m terrible at remembering to drink – that’s what motherhood will do to you I guess!
Hope you have a great week (and hope mine is less crappy 😉 )!